Saturday, August 10, 2013
Another Non-Sassy Comment
Ellen likes modern stuff. She thinks she's **** because of it. Get it? I don't remember at the moment but know she is risque and hurts people. Isn't she against that? That's something I had to do, otherwise not sure what I'd look like because I do both. No, I don't care if it's for her, it's for mean kids I hate.
Why I Am So Mean
I can't seem to stop. It's like there's something wrong with me. Like, getting too close to me can feel wrong. I will spew out my message, and it will be like my smoothie blender as far as extra fluff goes.
SEE!
Ellen would rub it in and then drop it altogether. She'd have to fix it and sit there complimenting or praising.. WORSHIPPING .. her very self! Hmph! Then, she wouldn't even know why she was involved in the 1st place!
Problema
Why go along with the bad side of people? How much do you want this to be @ my dad, who I have a distance from that's comfortable?
Well..
I'm just saying she can give a person attention, but like what was these insults?
I even made a forum, but no one bothered to talk to me.
I even made a forum, but no one bothered to talk to me.
More Waste of My Time
They just fluff in insults. They act like they are Ellen DeGeneres. Why would she be talking to me like that..?
You know, not everyone is as mean as her? Or I mean whoever said that. How do I know? I was thinking @ something and then I saw the webcam light turn on as the computer turned back on.
You know, not everyone is as mean as her? Or I mean whoever said that. How do I know? I was thinking @ something and then I saw the webcam light turn on as the computer turned back on.
It's hard..
getting used to people "getting it all out" being "more forward" since Tim Burton became famous more after "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory."
In a recent video..
..I said the little messages in little noises in this "experiment" actually make me feel bad, even if I don't really do anything else about it.
Old Post
Why does everyone get so protective over Late Boom and saying their kids are really just cool?
I am 1 person.
If someone has a hissy, if you take it out on me just for farts, I have to do something. I have to react and will probably post it.
Does someone in my life or maybe you? have a problem? with my race?
Is it a joke? Ha ha. Maybe, I can joke, too.
Sorry
I was in such a mad mode.. looks indecipherable and coded. At least I'm not plain nasty, or am I? You know, I shouldn't care, I didn't think I was that nasty, but I guess I forgot what I was doing. Maybe, I haven't fully unraveled. I was upset @ that girl wanting me "not to have my mom be my mom."
Dream
Another weird one. It looked like a big, long animal died. It was a long dream. We had to do stuff, and like avoid the part where something died. I think an old friend was in it. Think we were best friends, had at least 3 in my life, or possibly 2.
K
Cleaned the roaches. Have a stomach ache. Had to Febreeze my bed but had to sleep on the couch last.
Dream Before
I had a cooky dream of imagining myself stay on the Disney parade with frustrations, trying ot stay in as Tinkrebell. Long drea, thought I woke up @ 2. It wasn't so clear, but the parade setting was.
Dream
So, there was like a place with places to get dressed in it, a large house thing. It was a long dream. There was a wolf with his butt stuck like in the sink place and his butt got shot and he died. I had to use the place next to it. Something @ breathing, still have to get this dead roach, 2 actually, 1 by where I was sleeping, think my comforter is getting dirty. Someone almost touched me which made me feel funny @ how they were scared to have contact with me. I don't remember too much well. It was "an aura of foreboding."
WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM
Why are you picking on where I'm from? I LIVE WITH MY PARENTS! O wow, go Bella and Ashley, the Fort Lauderdale hopefuls.
Good to Be Bad
Does anyone else think Ellen is a dork to other people behind my back about me? She seems to think Bella was good like her to be mean to me and took race outta the way, except I didn't ever start anything I can remember. She is a bit mean, like tried to zonk me out and threaten me and take my time. Maybe, she's not all she's cut out to be. I thought we had a nice relationship, but she was mean to me several times for no good reason.
What are you now?
Now I am racial shit thinking I have an excuse when everyone calls me a nigger? O well, thanks for letting me know.
Meany
So, what, you give a shit more @ Nell? Why don't you do the Hell something. Wow, now I will lose something in my life for Nell.
I found the problem.
I am not gay, but I think I'm pretty sure I located the problem!
You can't say I'm not white. You have nothing in common with Bella. You have nothing in common with me. You have nothing in common with anyone!
You can't say I'm not white. You have nothing in common with Bella. You have nothing in common with me. You have nothing in common with anyone!
How do ya feel now?
Told spoiled Bella she was white like you? Why should I care if it ^matches^ something? I never think @ it. I said I was mad @ this. What are you? Guess you didn't do all I think you did. You cannot tell someone they are more white like you and get show off @ coming from a select resort living. Doesn't that make you feel utterly stupid and insane!
Crass
to tell someone they are not white. Wow guess you got nothing to say. Maybe, you're not a human.
Ha Ha
I can do whatever I want to you now, you liar. You're evil. You don't like me because I'm younger and want Bella from me cuz she's a little famous and cute.
Mad
Why do you wanna get into something slowly like that? I can post what I want on my blog. I don't have to be slowed down because you're slowly telling me I'm not white.
Wow, you're pretty mean.
You literally getting around I'm not white and maybe you are? I just told you no.
Problemas
What do you think of Ellen like what whining about being from the South, liking another girl from where I'm from better, and thinking I'm not all European. I like European more than you would be my response, but it's not a very safe 1. You can't tell me I'm not white. I just said so, but you don't care.
Friday, August 9, 2013
Okay, baby girl that hates me-
Lie down in your cradle and you'll get well. You were ugly, anyway. Why you think Ellen thinks your even shit?
Worried I Hurt Someone a Lot
I think my negative protruding responses to a girl's thoughts of my logic she dug into and was sly with me about .. the cars roared by and each time she looked less small and precious, a blonde. I am hurt, I know Ellen thinks the blondes are nicer. Well, I don't believe everyone should be white-haired. I can see no brown hair.
I said something, and she knew it made sense but went all funky and thought she could cascade into "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" you know to take my place like I have a place.
I said something, and she knew it made sense but went all funky and thought she could cascade into "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" you know to take my place like I have a place.
Why college?
In what way are we to fit in General Studies? Some schools with music subtract courses from General Studies requirements. If I went to college, I wish I'd done it in singing.
Everyone gets a degree?
I dunno, what did I not do that's not enough? Why am I not in some English movie..
Ethnicities
Amanda Seyfried's dad is mostly German and some English. Her mom is German and Scotch-Irish. She has a baby pic up, too, reminds me of me. The 1 by that French girl, Zoey Deschanel, also had a baby pic up like Ellen, recent immigrants from France. However, Ellen also has a relation with Kate Middleton, a brunette in England, kinda skinny in a way. Anyway, I get ole thot from my dad. I however just consider myself a German. Some of them are a bit naughty here. Amanda Seyfried seems disconnected. So does Taylor Swift. My teacher's dad is from where Jackie Evancho is from and where I wanted to live. She has like Eastern European, Southeastern I think. There's another famous lady Renee Fleming who moved to upstate NY. My dad himself is from only northern Pennsylvania and a little southern New York state. I wonder what it is about Amanda Seyfried different from Ellen, not having French. Lots of people don't, but they still seem to like it. I don't know how much I'd have.
Shit Bomb
So, why do I have to worry @ that old theater teacher blocking me? She deleted a post, then stalked me on my blog for no good reason. I called her a nigger cuz she wasn't supposed to see and I thought it was funny but try not to do that.
No one would have told me
like some schizo new idea that Ellen DeGeneres is "better" than me. I'm making up eating now, but it's too late in a way or in some way.
So..
it seems like a stopping point that Ellen was a fat teenager, like my theater teacher from there, Metarie, LA.
I realized for the 1st time
why people dislike my cousin. She takes away attention you got before she was born.
Still Hungry
Well, not for now. I know I had 2 boiled eggs, a ham cheese lettuce mayonaisse sammich, bread and melted butter greasy and stale this time. More Root Beer finished and mostly finished the orange soda, then water.
Wale! (Well)
My dad wasn't really all that social nor connected to me since I got called to the counselor.
I really don't get it.
My cousin is younger. She will have problems.
Lots of oldest girls probably have it good.
Lots of oldest girls probably have it good.
Problema
I really coped being the oldest, and now my dad is having some litter party uncoping me so my cousin is better than me.
They're just afraid of her.
They are making accident births feel that I'm the accident so they won't hurt me. I have nothing to do with their birth, and they were not an accident to their parents.
Wale! (Well)
If someone is younger, why do they get all in the groove when they know they're just a pile of shit?
People Getting Older
They just want to know that people make up insults to rub things in the right way without saying anything.
What Got Me
My cousin feels excited @ being the youngest in her close relatives. Otherwise, I don't know if there are girls younger than her, maybe 1. Unfortunately, she has white, smooth, curly hair, but her mom is dark.
Weirdos in the Kitchen
My cousin is a slimeball, have to tackle some way of how to figure her outta my life.
Also, I heard noises in the kitchen and ended up thinking of an attack, realized I was startled and being like hypnotized. People decide what to think. If not, that's not their thought. That's just a fantasy.
Also, I heard noises in the kitchen and ended up thinking of an attack, realized I was startled and being like hypnotized. People decide what to think. If not, that's not their thought. That's just a fantasy.
My Hair
I dunno, I mean it changes a lot. It usually has plenty of substance but was rather see-through.
Argh
What do you think @ high school? I shoulda just gone to NOCCA for singing. My life is also centered on doing nothing a lot of the time and doing floor workouts to get in shape and stay that way.
Retiring
What do you think @ people in their 50s and 60s retiring? I thought successful, rich people in their 70s were still active in the world other than golfing. Don't you want your own parents to be there for you emotionally? It must be depressing. I never had a life thanks to kids with Baby Boom parents.
Did you know..
I used to yell @ my therapist?
I told her why do you get 711 slurpies? Soda slushes aren't good to me, anymore.
I told her why do you get 711 slurpies? Soda slushes aren't good to me, anymore.
Me Being Mad
If you keep telling me someone's insulting me, I won't sit there and tip toe around them. If they didn't, then why does it matter?
Problema
Why should I care @ Ellen DeGeneres if I can make her feel zonked out?
Bella Thorne posted another incessant picture blabbing that she zonked me out. Go zonk yourself out.
Bella Thorne posted another incessant picture blabbing that she zonked me out. Go zonk yourself out.
Dealing With It
I thought there were a set of things you did before you started being like an electrocuted thing supposedly not having met them in "the game."
What's Hot or What's Not
Well, if Ellen doesn't know Chloe Grace Moretz, Chloe probably won't care @ her.
Alone on Set
I met Chloe Grace Moretz, well saw her, on Twitter when she started to meet, er, Mister Burton.
Isolated Communities in the U.S.A.
So, Chloe Grace Moretz just solved more problems being in an isolated community, so-to-speak.
And Other Things
Something that makes me feel better is though I'm older I do spend time on people like Chloe Grace Moretz.
People Do Things
If Chloe Grace Moretz copies people like me, then how is she the 1 with any original idea?
So
Kick Ass 2 is coming out now.. Chloe Grace Moretz. It would sure be fun to catch this if I'm not at home recuperating. Why is does she think she is smarter because supposedly her parents are from the South in the U.S.A.? Lots of people seem to find her conceited, maybe not even interesting.
Funny
Ellen DeGeneres got Chloe Grace Moretz in trouble with her attitude that kids with a parent from the South in the U.S.A. are better than everyone else no matter what they did to make their life humble.
Let's Get the Skinny
So, my elaborate ideas of like meeting Tim Burton and Ginny are not sore favors.
Dillusional?
People who weren't close to me seem to understand me better. Like, people who knew me my age are constantly wondering maybe life has no "contests" and games. I don't know what the end result point is. I just go along with life, and then I get into a social situation and people begin to cringe. That is so immature. Why don't you say what you want?
People in weird places
are close knit. Why do I even know them? ... It is cool, but there's something funny @ it.
It's so funny how
It seems adults brush Ginny aside. She's very attractive. I don't like the funk she has like Tim Burton, I am absolutely sick of anything L.A.. "and the club goes bump goes bump." Talk @ not working. That's so annoying. What is that? Work is like gettins trong (getting strong.)
What's Up
I did a core workout. Also, when I ward off attention means I'm warding OFF attention. Don't pick on me!
Why do you give a *beep* about Johnny Depp, yourself!
Why do you give a *beep* about Johnny Depp, yourself!
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Y Iz
her daughter so feminine? I don't think she really always necessarily feels that much. I wonder if she had a dad with indian, as well.
Morning
Well, still have blood sugar, will not accept treatment for diabetes. I might get paid to be treated more intensely for schizophrenia, or long time good quality sleep deprivation.
Showered and Bathed
Also, I cleaned most all of my room.
Sleep soon I guess then a like 3 hour jog I hope.
Sleep soon I guess then a like 3 hour jog I hope.
Things
My brother 1st worked @ Sea World and then they didn't accept him @ Disney. He may be mean just to me and otherwise perfect, but he wasn't trying to be snotty and make a statement, he just likes Sea World and wanted to change to Disney. He was
Just threw up everything.
Okay, I need to clean up, there are 2 roaches in my room.
It's so early. I should do some floor workouts, as well. Then, I have to complete the laundry, folding the rest and maybe tomorrow ironing.
Just threw up everything.
Okay, I need to clean up, there are 2 roaches in my room.
It's so early. I should do some floor workouts, as well. Then, I have to complete the laundry, folding the rest and maybe tomorrow ironing.
How I Feel
Cold & Tired
I feel the sugar in my body. :S
I might lie down and later practice singing? What will happen when I lie down?
I feel the sugar in my body. :S
I might lie down and later practice singing? What will happen when I lie down?
So
I was just watching the Japanese dance I believe in Biloxi. I can still look like that but would need to get very much in shape. I think the rest helped with some things. I just feel more self-comfortable.
Lots of times I thought of things, like the Mongoloid or Asian culture. I kept crumbling forward over myself and like got watery eyes.. I think I gave in midway.
Lots of times I thought of things, like the Mongoloid or Asian culture. I kept crumbling forward over myself and like got watery eyes.. I think I gave in midway.
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Feel Sick
Well, I had some of a fish, cooked spinach, bread and butter some heated, and all my vitamins. I didn't get more weight management pills, maybe at the end of August or beginning of September.
So, I'm on the road to recover.
So, I'm on the road to recover.
Annoying Stuff
My mouse is being weird. Also, I was so annoyed at incessant messages and from my mom that I felt like I was letting go of a child, the girl on my right.
Breakfast
I had a tiny bit of granola cereal. My orange slushie, too. I feel like throwing up again.
So
I don't really m********* to Tim Burton as a protocol, like @ how he choses to portray his films, whatever that means to you.
So
I am listening to Master of the House which I sang successfully.
Remember when Tim Burton made me m*********? Not smart. My flaw.
Remember when Tim Burton made me m*********? Not smart. My flaw.
You got me all shook up.
I just see a past of too many problems. I might not even be a healthy person.
So
We know 1 friend herself would like Ellen DeGeneres but is not responsible enough to consider trying to get her to meet her..
The other 1, what was it..I forget, some opposite issue.
What about other people? They can't all expect to meet Ellen DeGeneres. She could be at a big gathering of people, but it seems we don't have so much of that happening. We should be able to spread out with people like Ginny and the promiser Tim Burton. He says the movie is the thing. I don't have anyone to parent me. I think my parents are too stupid. LOL, jk.
The other 1, what was it..I forget, some opposite issue.
What about other people? They can't all expect to meet Ellen DeGeneres. She could be at a big gathering of people, but it seems we don't have so much of that happening. We should be able to spread out with people like Ginny and the promiser Tim Burton. He says the movie is the thing. I don't have anyone to parent me. I think my parents are too stupid. LOL, jk.
Wale! (Well)
I made my 1st sammich in a long time, but my heart can't take all this ham, really. I had cheese and ranch. I washed a few spinach leaves, which will quell me.
I noticed my friends are really sheltered or 1 is when she's really mean and finds out something. I can understand this. I just feel she projected an image by her own decision. I don't tell the world all about her all the time. I hope not. See, she'd react to that. She's younger than me. The older 1 won't talk to me, so I guess she doesn't, neither.
I see though here Orlando it's pretty trashy. The people at that meeting are all dazed and have their own issues.
You know, Ginny, off canoeing somewhere, while we're on a ship. Talk about wanting to be different. O, it's kayaking! That's so cute!
Something big in the support group today was about how much attention I get I think. I mean like from people in the world. I am just popular like a ruler or the President. About being accessible to stars, well, that's that, I get to be judged and it came out nice. I do not understand so much how we will organize more fun because we certainly need it I daresay. What about Hayley or however her name was spelled, a little English girl on the PotC board on MySpace. I came, and they just left. I kept posting, but no one would answer.
I noticed my friends are really sheltered or 1 is when she's really mean and finds out something. I can understand this. I just feel she projected an image by her own decision. I don't tell the world all about her all the time. I hope not. See, she'd react to that. She's younger than me. The older 1 won't talk to me, so I guess she doesn't, neither.
I see though here Orlando it's pretty trashy. The people at that meeting are all dazed and have their own issues.
You know, Ginny, off canoeing somewhere, while we're on a ship. Talk about wanting to be different. O, it's kayaking! That's so cute!
Something big in the support group today was about how much attention I get I think. I mean like from people in the world. I am just popular like a ruler or the President. About being accessible to stars, well, that's that, I get to be judged and it came out nice. I do not understand so much how we will organize more fun because we certainly need it I daresay. What about Hayley or however her name was spelled, a little English girl on the PotC board on MySpace. I came, and they just left. I kept posting, but no one would answer.
Group Support, Today
I think they thought the ship really went down, like they know about my old friends, were looking at me and turned to really like me, all turned on. They made me laugh a lot, too. I covered most of it.
Well
They look at me and I can feel them judging me. They think I am not fair underneath and that everything I do is tacky.
What?
There's something wrong with my posts? I just made 1 post shorter. I need some real friends. I was thinking of all the weird thoughts that get thrown at me in Orlando. Physically, I have no outlet.
Health Benefits
I just feel I was healthier when I was trying to coordinate a school schedule. I really wasn't all that bad. I don't think the teacher expected this. It was really annoying seeing the disciplinarian. He was gonna like do 1 of 2 options to retreat from the classes. I am under the impression I am advised not to take classes from that teacher, but I like her and maybe none of the other teachers. I take private singing from her. You see, I would get there around 6 AM. I could do a number of things. I go to Weight Training @ 9-10:15, lunch, jogging, shower, then theater classes. I'd go home and see a therapist once a week, no pill. Then, I'd just come home. It seemed to fit in. I guess you'd say this teacher is antsy @ the text. She didn't really seem to teach. It was more like a work shop. She'd just talk @ theater gossip, like that exists for her. She just is an attractive person. I kinda don't know @ going back. Why doesn't she just open her own school? I don't wanna take her classes. I dunno how I will fit in anything else in my life. This was a bridge for me, so I could work out, too. It didn't work. I at the beginning had to do things for my Florida Residency and somehow got it fixed and stayed in all 3 classes. Now, she's a full-time professor there with office hours. She doesn't teach at the other school. I think she thinks the crap homework actually is something. I thought it was about getting together and acting. That's not work. Well..whatever.
Getting Help
Well, I have a therapist, which is all the help you need. She is a big help. She feels like my mom. I was so surprised to see her at the psychiatrist appointment. I was all dressed up.. I mean, I don't know how long she's been in Orlando|Florida, though. People seem pressured about their opinions of Miami. I dunno, there's a culture and a new, growing culture people tend to in their lives. I was pretty damn excited about all these cultures. I guess the new TV season is starting, again, and I can watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show.." What else? My goal is just to get in the Disney parade. I was gonna work, wanna wait until I get better at a sleep schedule. I really like that kinda stuff, into classical stuff and kid stuff and artsy stuff! It's really exciting. There are people here keeping Disney alive. Oh, yes, I wanted to try to get on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." I guess I have to do something on Facebook or see if she has contests to enter this time. I'm gonna go over and check out her site. She's getting older, but like other older people, like I can look up to her. I'm not sure the experience of the older people. I feel denied and shied of my identity, but Ellen seems to be able to handle anything in life. I'm a bit lonely and depressed. I got kicked outta that class. The staying at a mental place was adventurous and I felt good from going to school! I can't go to school even if I wanted now! I need a note, and I don't know if there's anything I can enroll in now. So, I'm not sure what I'll do for day to day normal commencements.
How I Feel
I'm cold. I'm jittery. My head is sore. I feel like I'm regurgitating and have to blow my nose. I just had a regurgitating seizure.
I'm okay. I just went to the bathroom. So cold.
I need to solve my life. I'm nowhere. I need to learn to cook. Cook what? We got fish.. I have bread and butter as an option. I wonder if I could make something tasty..too bad I just thought pizza. Well, how about we just had stew and I dunked my bread in it. I've been asking for spaghetti and sausage. That's all I ask. You know, I used to hate that. I see you can make some neat stuff, maybe mix spices. I wanna eat at Olive Garden and have more of that shrimp appetizer.
I was lonely sobbing into myself on my sofa with an old comforter.
I was cheered to see Bella dressed like Alice in Wonderland for a Planes thing by Disney. I hope the kids all love it!
Maybe I should turn on some music.
I'm okay. I just went to the bathroom. So cold.
I need to solve my life. I'm nowhere. I need to learn to cook. Cook what? We got fish.. I have bread and butter as an option. I wonder if I could make something tasty..too bad I just thought pizza. Well, how about we just had stew and I dunked my bread in it. I've been asking for spaghetti and sausage. That's all I ask. You know, I used to hate that. I see you can make some neat stuff, maybe mix spices. I wanna eat at Olive Garden and have more of that shrimp appetizer.
I was lonely sobbing into myself on my sofa with an old comforter.
I was cheered to see Bella dressed like Alice in Wonderland for a Planes thing by Disney. I hope the kids all love it!
Maybe I should turn on some music.
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